still unimpressive

Hey guys, tell me if I’m the only one thats feels this but:

This morning I woke up, in disarray as usual. With the usual imprecision I dressed brushed my teeth etc. It was something like 7:20am , usually the sky would be brightly suggesting the misadventures of a new day, but today it was dark, and gloomy. “No good can come out of this” I thought. Any day where you can’t distinguish between 7am and 9pm is going to be a bad day.

I decided not to go to track practice. I’m sure everyone else did also.

Today I had one specific task: read lots and lots of crap about various esoteric attributes of oceanography. I had no problem with it and after perusing the internets until 10am finally got my butt to work. I started reading my chapters. All of a sudden the sun came out. Hope! A bit of sunshine to light the day? Yes! Wonderful. Everything seemed a little more comfortable now. Sunshine can do a lot for my mood.

After reading some more I ate lunch and took a nap. At 4pm I woke up. And it was dark again. Along with the sun, my interest in oceanography also disappeared behind the clouds. I sat around for a while, and mindlessly continued trying to read. Nothing happened. The darkness killed me. Why can’t the sun be out longer? Or a friend call or something? Anything? A distraction to remind me of the elements in life that are not enslaving? Well actually Erica called. But she was busy so I still had no idea what I was doing.
I went to sleep merry. And I woke up in a dark world of nobody on MSN.

A few hours later, at 5pm, I started writing this post to hopefully get this heart start beating again.

I’m confused now.